This is the post I never wanted to write. Why? Because I’m going to open up about a topic that is profoundly personal, troubling to me, and unpleasant. It’s my deepest fear and uncertainty, one I don’t have the answers for. I never wanted to write about it because it makes me incredibly emotional, and showing my strangely strong emotions about this makes me feel so…weird. I know that’s not the best word, but it describes the strangeness and high level of discomfort I feel about being emotional.
I’ve always been a writer and have found that writing is my best outlet. It allows me to get out my thoughts and feelings in a safe way. I can hide behind the words as I type the letters instead of confronting them by speaking them out loud. At the same time I’m hiding, I can also reveal my most intimate feelings in a very public way.
I enjoy writing about hope, positivity, and answers. I don’t like complaining for the sake of complaining – I think when you have a problem, you should seek a solution to it. In this post I never wanted to write, I don’t have a solution.